Larger Heart

Back in January, there had been so many blessings flooding me that I felt I "couldn't keep up" and prayed for God to hold it just a bit and let me "catch my breath". He seemed to do so; for awhile, things seemed "back to normal", but then it felt AWFUL, like I was "slipping back" into the un-intimate, non-robust walk I'd known before. Instead of praying that God would give me just enough as I could take, I found myself praying for a larger heart that I could take more:

"I will run the way of thy commandments, when thou shalt ENLARGE MY HEART." (Ps. 119:32)

But I felt like I was continuing to "slip" back. Then it dawned on me: God HAD so "enlarged my heart" that it felt empty even when being dowsed with blessings!

My first prayer then, after thanking God for what He'd done, was that He would lessen my yearning for the SENSATION of pulsating joy and simply want to see how much stronger, faster, higher, my new heart would take me--and learn another type of exciting-discovery by it. Help me, I prayed, to "step out...and find God is there every step of the way". And then, I prayed, may I explode with song, "My God Lives!!!"

That prayer changed the next day. "Turn up the volume" of SENSATION, I prayed, that it would break the "eardrums of my heart" until I begged for a larger, better heart once more!

Then came this thought: SOME CHRISTIANS STOP AT ASKING GOD FOR A STRONGER BACK TO WITHSTAND HARDER TRIALS. WHY DON'T MORE CHILDREN OF A GENEROUS, LOVING GOD ASK FOR STRONGER HEARTS, EYES, EARDRUMS, TO RECEIVE MORE BLESSING FROM HIM?!

"I am the LORD thy God, which brought thee out of the land of Egypt: OPEN THY MOUTH WIDE, AND I WILL FILL IT." (Ps. 81:10)

"Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, said the LORD of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that THERE SHALL NOT BE ROOM ENOUGH TO RECEIVE IT." (Ma. 3:10)